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i totally forgot about this... and i said i'm going to start a new one so i can dump my emo feelings here... and all my old log in shit was saved.... so here i am... this is where i'm going to dump out the feelings that i don't need my myspace friends or facebooks friends to see....
here i am... i'm trying to be this strong army girlfriend..... if i'm a girlfriend.... we never threw on titles before he left..... but he calls me every couple weeks... we aren't dating anybody else so i've been told i'm an army girlfriend.... he is in iraq.... he will be back in 5 or 6 weeks.... and he's only been gone almost 5..... i know i'm lucky in that sense..... but this being my first deployment i wish my girlfriends with army husbands/boyfriends would ask me more often how i'm doing and remind me everything will be fine.... today is one of those days i feel 100% alone in this.... 99.9% chance he will be fine.... but you never know.... i miss the sunday's together... whether we actually did anything or bummed around the apartment with his roommate.... i miss the sex too... but i just miss slammin beers down with my man the most... i miss showing up at the bar and having all his friends be excited i'm there....
valentines day was the day i felt like i had a boyfriend... i don't expect a shit ton of PDA especially with a lot of friends around... he gave me the most wonderful kiss.... and i went out to smoke with a friend and she told me that everyone was super excited i was on my way.... and that for her she felt like she had an outside view of our relationship and that he and i complimented each other so well....
i could go on about how much i adore him... but the short of it is that i'm a little sad tonight cause i miss him oh so much and i don't feel like the other army girls really feel like i'm one of them yet... probably cause i'm not married to him....... i'll post a ton of new pics in a seperate post.......
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| stolen from mike |
[13 Aug 2007|11:46pm] |
If "You Had To" Section
1.] If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you want it?
i have three... so if i had to get another one (which i will) bettie page and marilyn monroe on my ribs
2.] If you had to dye your hair which color would you choose?
purple i guess
3.] If you had to get a piercing (THAT ISN'T YOUR EARS) what would you get?
what haven't i done.... i want more just where is the question
4.] If you had to change your name...what new name would you choose?
something with an i so that my initials would be AIR
The "Would You?" Section
1.] If you could go bungee jumping, would you?
sure
2.] Would you move somewhere else, if you could?
seattle specifically fremont
3.] If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?
yes i would
4.] If you found 10 million dollars, and it was YOURS to spend, what would you do with it?
by a new car and a house pay for my college and invest a lot of it
The "Let's say..." section..
1.] Let's say you see a big ship sink...only 3 people have a chance to survive. The 3 people are Your Best Friend, Your Soulmate boyfriend/girlfriend, and An old lady (that you don't know too well)...who would you save if you HAD to choose?
all of them
2.] Let's say you became President...what is the first thing you would do?
work on the health care system and end the war in iraq and let all those people know sorry about that little war thing... we had a monkey running our country
3.] Let's say you could pick one of your celebrity crushes to date...this person is..
Cillian Murphy... we would go on one date get married and have babies
5.] Let's say you could star in any movie (made or in the works) what movie?
anything with cillian murphy that would involve us making out or having sex
The "Favorites" section..
What is your favorite...
1.] Color? dark purple
2.] Current song? not sure
3.] Shirt you own? all of them
4.] Electronic device? My laptop
5.] Movie? the proposition
6.] Book? none
7.] Pair of shoes? my black pumps
8.] Hair color? whatever floats my boat at the moment
9.] Eye color? green eyes are nice... i have green eyes
The "Other Stuff" Section...
1.] What makes your bedroom unique?
nothing... well once i make my argyle dresser... then that will be unique
2.] What is your favorite outfit to wear?
i have a lot of them
3.] What is your favorite dream to have?
the kind that no one attacks me or the ones where i'm not pregnant... i hate having pregnant dreams...
4.] What makes you an individual?
a lot
5.] What is your Anti-Drug?
cigarettes
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| OPERATION CRYBABY |
[15 Jun 2007|04:59am] |
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ahem....
dear bitch that cheated on her boyfriend....
do you have any idea how many people you affected tonight......... lets count the people i am aware of.... your now exboyfriend, the friends apartment he was drunk at... the friends girlfriend, andrew, me..... 5!!! that's right bitch at least 5 people were having to deal with your crybaby exboyfriend... now he knows andrew is a vampire so he calls andrew cause the other friends most likely got fed up with his despair and went to sleep.... andrew could not get him to understand that i was driving from TACOMA!!! to have some time together.... so i woke up from my "nap" when andrew called me at 1:30am to go see andrew and have some fun to only drive andrew to the crybaby exboyfriend of yours so that andrew could be a bestest pal.... it is now 5am... i should be sleeping... but nope... bitch if i ever see you i'm kickin your ass for the people listed above.... and i'm also punching your exboyfriend for being too drunk and depressed to understand his pal andrew had me over.... i am not mad at andrew or your ex.... we are all angry at you because you are an inconsiderate bitch.....
warmest regards...
anne <3
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[27 May 2007|12:58am] |
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so i'm going back to school... and it's about damn time i do.... gonna finish my prerequisites for UWT... i'm gonna get a BA in business administration with a minor in marketing..... i've been working a lot... i need to work more though.... and i've been dating... but i think i've got it narrowed down to one guy...
he could very well be the next boyfriend... he's 29... a bartender in fremont... he also has his own clothing line he's working on... he should be having another release soon... just all around foxy and amazing... definitely falling head over heels for this boy... but school will come first.... cause who knows... someday i could be his marketing rep for his clothing line.... lets hope he's the one kids...
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| mini life update |
[09 Mar 2007|11:42pm] |
i am single
i am celibate
i am turning 21 on the 20th
i got a new tattoo on my left hip
i'm getting another tattoo on thursday...
it looks a little weird in that pic cause it's one day old and taken at a weird angle
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[02 Dec 2006|11:41am] |
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i'm officially the hostess to the mostess.... i got hostess of the year :) and a nice $25 cash bonus for being sooo awesome :) jeah!
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i hate thanksgiving.... i hate it....... there's not too much that i hate and thanksgiving happens to be one of them.......
and i hate the fact i always find/fall for guys with problems.... the lastest guy is my super awesome pal to the max.... not my boyfriend.... but he is having guilt issues about being with me so soon after breaking up with his ex....... and he's technically in a relationship with alcohol so that's why he can't have a full relationship with me.... but at least he realizes this and knows he needs to get into therapy..... he says he's gonna do this soon cause he doesn't want it to go on cause he wants to see me and stuff....... and i'm okay with it because i knew about this going into this...... but you know it still hurts that you can't hang out with someone that you really love to hang out with because of this guilt feeling they have...... but unfortunatly i have to sit here and be strong but at the same time i want to go find something that is pretty much what i have now but without the alcohol and guilty feelings that lasts more than a month..... i want that long term relationship again.... i may eventually have that with him....... but right now i don't know.... and i don't want to walk away and add to his problems...... i don't want him to feel like everytime he has baggage or whatever a girl is gonna walk away from him......... all i know is that no matter what happens is he will always be my friend and that nothing can hurt as much as hearing "i don't love you anymore"............. all i really want is to hear "i love you" everyday and have it be truely meant by the guy.....
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my tummy hurts... who wants to make me soup?
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| seriously fuck november to the max |
[10 Nov 2006|02:47am] |
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i have determined november is my least favorite month... it is so unfortunate that i have to have my favorite month followed by the month that i strongly dislike... i can't say that i hate it because there are some good things about november [usually i have a special guy in my life whether is be awesome pal to the max (that's you mike) or a boyfriend, pretty colored leaves, pumpkin pie] but it has more con's than pros... last november my 2 best friends at school got kicked out, my car at the time got broken into the day before thanksgiving, finances went to hell and i was more than broke, thanksgiving (least favorite holiday), and turkey.... this november not looking so hott either... finances are barely hanging on (broke but not fucked over), don't see enough of my friends, work is not so hot (i need job insurance called another job), thanksgiving is at my house, turkey, and my car just broke.....
so the story about my car.... it's been okay for a 16 year old car and well it started idling kinda loud today and i was like hummmm everything else seems fine... WRONG!!!! i made it all the way to seattle and then my cars temperature spiked up a bit and while sitting at this light for like 10 minutes it went all the way hott and i was all OH SNAPS!!! but thinking it could make it to the station which wasn't that far (like a couple blocks) i kept on trucking... unfortunately i wasn't allowed to go the way i needed to and the end result was my cars check engine light coming on and then dieing... thanks for the warning car.... so there i was stranded on the side of Roy St between Warren and 1st ave N.... that happened at like 10:15pm........ i got home and car arrived at like 1:20am..... but thanks to the most awesomest pal to the max (again that's you Mike) he drove me all the way to tacoma so i didn't have to ride in the tow truck cause i'm a paranoid girl.... so lets all give Mike 12,000 kudos each :) so that's a hell of a lot of kudos!!!
end of shitty story... time for sleep?
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<table width=350 align=center border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2><tr><td bgcolor="#EEEEEE" align=center><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'><b>Your Aura is Yellow</b></font></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#DDDDDD"><center><img src="http://images.yournewromance.com/whatcolorisyourauraquiz/yellow.jpg" height="100" width="100"></center><font color="#000000">
Your Personality: Life's too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you.
You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you'll be loyal to that one man who makes you feel safe.
Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won't stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actress.</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href="http://ynr.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourauraquiz/">What Color Is Your Aura?</a></div>
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[15 Oct 2006|10:21pm] |
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i'm feeling a little angry at the fact i was supposed to hang out with my friend jake and he never called me back today and my mom wants me to empty the dishwasher but i fucking worked all day long... i am tired and i ache.... uggg....
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furitsudzuita nagai ame ga agaru
I have waited long time... yeah
iradachi wo kakushite
kyou mo nibui zutsuu no you ni hibiku
Noisy sound out of my head phone
BEDDO ni nagetsukete
hikizuru you ni arukidasu ashita e to
kon'ya mo utsushidasu inori no silhouette
Hey my friend
naze darou anata no koe ga kikoeru
Hello my self
kakureteta hikari ga mieta ki ga shita ah
surechigai miushinau to mou wakaranai
I lose my way without you
deguchi ga mienakute
nantonaku nakisou ni naru no
I don't know where my heart is...
sunao ni narenakute
owaranai yume ya genjitsu ga dou toka
saegiru mono ni torawarete ita kedo
Hey my friend
tsumadzukanai ikikata nado nai kara
Baby i think...
kazaru dake no PURAIDO nara iranai
ah woo...
aoi sora wa soko ni aru no?
where are you babe?
I lose my way without you
kono kiri ga haretara...
kawaru nanka ni mune wo odorasete itai
subete ga detarame ni mieru kono sekai de
Hey my friend
naze darou anata no koe ga kikoeru
Hello my self
michibikareru you ni mieta mirai ga aru no
dakedo fumihazusu michi ga chikaku ni aru nara
nee my friend
anata ga kidzuita toki ni wa oshiete |
The long, continuous rain stops
I have waited long time... yeah
I hide my irritation
Even today, the noisy sound out of my head phone
echoes like a sharp headache
& I fling myself into bed
I begin to walk to tomorrow like I'm dragging myself
Tonight also, there's a silhouette of a prayer that's projected out
Hey my friend
I wonder why I can hear your voice
Hello my self
I felt that I could see the hidden light, ah
I didn't know that I passed it by and lost sight of it
I lose my way without you
The exit isn't visible
Somehow I get teary
I dont know where my heart is...
I can't be straight-forward
The endless dreams, reality, etc.
I was caught up with the interruptions
Hey my friend
we stumble over life, so
Baby i think...
If it's just a flashy pride, I don't need it
ah woo...
Is the blue sky there?
where are you babe?
I lose my way withou you
When this fog clears...
I want to make my heart dance because of something that changes
Everything in this world appears to be in chaos
Hey my friend
I wonder why I can hear your voice
Hello my self
In order to be guided, there's a future that's visible
But, if a stray path is close by,
hey my friend
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| Good bye... I'm done |
[10 Sep 2006|03:39pm] |
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I don't need to prove myself to you. I'm not gonna try and prove whether something happened or not... that's for you to think what you want. I just wish you would grow up and walk away from it like an adult... not throwing accusations at me and messaging my phone nonstop to the point i have to turn it off... please just respect me and don't talk to me anymore....
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[09 Sep 2006|11:23am] |
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go ahead be a gay nigger.... not my fault you have a beligerent friend and you decided to start hating me because of it.... you deserve the fucking dumb bitch that you cheated on and made you want to kill yourself before.... don't blame me for the rest of your drunk friends... i tried to walk away from it... but apparently you really like me driving drunk these days.... thanks to taylor i didn't have to do that.... don't ask me to get your booze and shit.... not my fault your friends like me and wanted me there... if you weren't so pissy about it then it probably wouldn't be ending like this... not my fault your dumb slutty bitch wasn't there for you last night.... good luck with your life... i can see it's about to all down hill from here and you'll be back to where you were before.... going to rehab and jail.... fuck you nigger
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| Just run with me through rows of speeding cars |
[08 Sep 2006|12:39am] |
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Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don’t feed me violence, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck
There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I'll love you, yeh
Sleeping pills, no sleeping dogs lie never
Far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I’ve watched you slowly winding down for years
You can’t keep on like this
Now is as bad of time as any
There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I'll love you, yeh
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a long time ago
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a - long - time - ago
There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I'll love you, yeh
There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I'll love you, yeh
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